June 23, 2000
I have heard from a lot of you, thinking that I am dead. Well I am alive. Busy and alive!
I have been side-tracked by my good health. Actually, I had a scare tonight in the shower as I was shaving my left leg. I felt a big lump behind my knee. I am very sensitive about finding anything that remotely resembles a lump anywhere on my body. I am a bit lump-phobic. It was 5:30 PM on Friday, so seeing a doctor was out of the question. I ran down stairs to show my husband and then called my physician father. To shorten what could be a long story, the lump turned out to be more of a puffiness sort of thing and it vanished within 20 minutes of appearing. It was enough to make my mind go wild and think of exactly how I would take bad new, and how it would affect my new family. I really really really did not want to have to put my life on hold again while I went through treatment. I imagined myself sitting on a big cancer cell and not letting it up. I shall see the entire short event as a wake up call.
The timing was perfect to be awakened. I have recently decided to get back into the cancer world with my website and various other projects that are cancer related. In fact, I am going to put a new face on this site and offer a few visualization items that could only come from a post cancer brains such as mine. Over the years I have had a lot of requests for a book to help others with my brand of visualizations. So I am producing several workbook sorts of visualization guides, followed by tapes, for kids and adults (and their friends, family and caretakers) going through cancer treatment. I will make an announcement as soon as they are available.
In the meantime, I will be updating this part of my site. So be prepared, I am quite alive!
