It actually wasn't at all awkward and we had lots to talk about. It turns out that she has had her own brush with cancer, of course we had never discussed such things.

Her concern is that we share virus history, in fact we both have a similar toe infection currently!! We talked about the connections virus's have with cancer and the immune system generally. You just don't realize the damage these things do to your body. I think we so often hear doctors telling us everything is a virus. I have contracted two virus's in my life that are directly linked to cancer. I only know this now that I have HAD cancer. They certainly are dangerous things.

I am really going to work on my visualizing experience over the next few weeks.

I'd like to try and focus on my healing process, because I know how long it is going to take to get back to normal and I want to feel a lot better than I did before Chemo. Even so, I am trying to construct an image of healthiness that I can work towards. Weight loss is the obvious. As long as I'm carrying this extra weight the stress on me is enormous. 

I would like to be able to generate a new kind of energy, a protective task force I guess that helps me stay well.