I have a new side effect! Swollen ankles - they are really puffy and quite weird.  

Swollen ankles - Only been there since Friday, so I will call my Oncology dept tomorrow and check it out. I had a little pain in my Hickman Line this week also and have had a few headaches and backaches which I think are associated with the G-CSF injections.

I have had a bit of an emotional roller coaster of a weekend and am feeling pretty drained and numb. It is interesting how cancer puts some aspects of your life in perspective, others it blows apart, and the rest is left in utter confusion. I am trying very hard to use visualization to relax and try to tune into my emotions, to try and figure out what it is I'm feeling about things. A big part of me lately wants to hibernate ! I kind of want to hide away and hope that it will all go away, or that someone will wave a magic wand and make everything all right.

The difficulty is that Hodgkin's Disease is a bit like a hibernation for me really, because my life would appear to be on hold until treatment is over. I socialize occasionally but it is tiring and I can't go out on a regular basis. Just going to work each day is enough! But during this time other people's lives go on, relationships have changed during this time - some I have lost and other 's I realize are made stronger - or I realize how important they are, or unimportant.

Visualizing becomes difficult in the case of relationships with the self and others; I find myself pretty blocked in this respect and although I would like to try and pursue this avenue I'm not sure now is the time.

Having had a week of injections I am certainly hoping my counts will be up enough for Wednesday. I am certainly not going to rely on that though and will now go and do some blood count workouts!