Webumentary
Day 7
Webumentary
Day 7
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Treatment Number 5 Written by Alison Bell |
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Thursday 15th Feb.
Wow! You can see why valium is so addictive! Yes, it was PET scan day today and quite a good day, beautifully sunny and I did lots of positive thinking last night and this morning. I just hope it works. The scanner seems always to be in a scary basement but the room I relaxed in was peaceful and nice, a very relaxing morning really - given drugs and told to just lie down and be happy. If I could just convince someone to pay me to do that for a living!
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I had a realization yesterday that I had imagined my cancer sites as quite big, with my white cells cleaning up, hosing down and almost like clearing graffiti off a big wall. |
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I started to concern myself that my white cells should be a lot bigger. I don't think I felt the white cells were weaker than the cancer, since I imagine it as dead anyway, but I had lots of little men cleaning up a big area. Now I am seeing them as bigger and stronger clearing up a mess on the floor. |
It was nice to have a work free day today, went for a much needed grocery trip, and bought lots of fruit. I'm now a little tired and will get an early night - and try not to think too much about my scan results. It's beginning to be a bit scary as I don't really know how much treatment I will be getting. I'm a member of a help group and lots of people are dealing with issues after treatment and I know that I will be going thru that too. It's easy to focus on the treatment and the fight, but the life after is going to be a hard one - that lingering feeling that you are always under a shadow. But the fight isn't over yet and there are bridges to cross before that one.
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