February 20, 2000

I still kicking! I just had my 3 year cat scan. I didn't really need one, but I requested it so that I could start the next year feeling very clean and HD-Free. That leads me to something I want to talk about.

Requesting, choosing, taking control of your own life. The longer I live, the more proof I get that one must create their own life rather than look for the outside world to create one for you. It just does not happen. Looking outside onself for a great life or happiness of any kind is ignoring what might be a gazillion dollar idea buried deep within your own mind. To me, the gazillion dollars is in the bank the second you realize that your true richs and freedom lie between your own ears. Actually, between you ears is where your brain lies, and it is your brain that allows your mind, the source of all riches, to come alive. Your mind is about as endless as the an infinite universe. Much is an unexplored mystery, and being human, their is not enough time in our lives to make use of our inner power. So that is why I had the cat scan done, because it was my choice to give myself peace of mind. I now have peace within my mind, and nothing on the outside of my head can take that away. Now my mind is free to think how I want it too, with nothing dark and cloud-like hanging over me.

Back to the 3 year subject. On March 13, 2000, I will celebrate my 3 year Survival Day. My doctor practically laughed at me during my last follow-up appointment, telling me he did not know why he's even seeing me anymore. I'm just too damn healthy. He also said there is no reason for me to think that I will ever have HD again. So, healthy is how I choose to think!

That is it for now! I shall be back!