Three months later and I am back and on-line!

October 4, 1998
Have you ever felt as if a humungous giant picked you up by your toes, dangled you upside down, only to drop you onto a running roller coaster? Well, that is the ride I have been on for the past three months. I left my husband, moved into a small rental condo with my daughter, started a new job, began working at my daughter's school, totalled my car, making me one of the many million single working moms who are trying to be three people all in one day. I barely have time to recall, that not too long ago, I spent my days lying in bed staring at the walls as if they had been nominated for an Emmy. It is hard to know if I am more tired than your average person, but I do know that when the weekend arrives, my energy hits that proverbial wall. When I get tired, my head must hit a flat surface immediately. The amazing thing is that I do recharge, sometimes in a very short amount of time. I have to factor in time to allow my body to process new energy, and when I do, I imagine myself as queen of the mountain standing secure against hurricane force winds daring any cancer cell to reappear and face my bionic health! I can see a lone cancer cell backing away, fear and surprise on his face, like a bully who succumbs to the fact that he is really a chicken. That is why I must always imagine that I have a sort of superhuman health, it keeps me one step ahead of that bully. Hey, look! It's a bird, it's a plane, no, it's Super Health Girl! See her bounce cancer cells off her chest!

The good news is, and there can always be good news even when life dangles you over a cliff. I have learned that the important thing to do with any bad event is to do something, anything, move forward. It takes about ten good things to wipe out one bad thing, so now I try to create good things whenever something bad happens. I do it right away, before that helpless and powerless feeling sets in. That is exactly what I did when I totalled my Izuzu, I took out a scary loan and bought a new VW Beetle. She is white and her name is Lily Bug. She symbolizes my new life. A life on the road, with a new future, a free spirited flower power ride, a car that a Blort would drive. If ever a car emoted positiveness, it is a new Beetle. It is like driving a giant smile.

What else is good, well, my gig as a presenter at the "Supportive Care Conference, '99" is set! I have 75 minutes to entrance a room full of health care professionals with a presentation that combines my Blortland characters, with cancer and healing vizualizations. I have known for almost 30 years that my Blorts had a purpose in this life, but never would I have dreamed of this particular scenario. Timing is everything!